Hello friends and family.
I know it's been a little while, but there wasn't much to write home about until now.
Yesterday morning I wrote this in my journal and I wanted to share it:
Thursday, Aug 12
This week is my first at my new job as a tech support person for Sibelius.
(best selling professional music notation software - www.sibelius.com)
I continue to be in awe of what an amazing thing it is for me to have found a job there. Perhaps even worth a year of unemployment.
14 years ago, I decided that I wanted to study music composition at Belmont U. in Nashville. (there was nothing else that I would or felt I could major in. only music. specifically composition. nothing else.)
But then 9 years ago, after school, I had to make a living. I've been thoroughly overwhelmed with life ever since and have not had the time or emotional energy to pursue music like I've wanted to. Especially writing orchestrated music. I took a class at Belmont for music notation using a program called Finale. This program is like a word processor for written music. But it's very expensive, so after the class I took 10 years, I never touched it again. It was hard to be motivated to write music manually. It would be the same for an author working on a novel. Why bother with pen and paper when MS Word exists? So I ended up working in the Internet Industry.
Lord you were truly ordering my steps all this time.
Now, I've come to a job that uses my experience in the internet AND my education - and the desire of my heart... MUSIC?!?!?! There is talk of orchestra instruments and composing all around me all the time!
My only regret now is my insufficient ability to feel and show the gratitude that is due. I've spent the last year here in CA questioning more and more God's love, His faithfulness, His Word, His promises and even His very existence at times. Had I held to Him more closely and more tightly to Him, this amazing new chapter would have come as no surprise, but instead a consummation of a journey with the Lover of my soul. An exciting new chapter in life presented to me by the Loving, Sovereign Author and finisher of my life and faith.
Oh that I could come back to that place of nearness! Oh that I could escape my fears and doubts and the damage that they've inflicted. My dear Lord HAS been near and has been ordering my steps all along to bring me to an amazing place that is beyond what I could have imagined. And I am a little numb.
Lord forgive my rebellion and my disbelief. Restore my soul. Soften my heart towards you that I might respond to You as I ought. Help me to gush with the praise that You deserve. Help me stay and stand strong when I don't understand what's going on. Help me to believe and trust you with ALL my heart. Give me an undivided heart. I don't want to stray from you again!
I'm so happy to have this to share with you.
Join me in praising God for His goodness and mercy.
Blessings to you,
I told you I'd keep you in mind if any openings came up. Well, we will have an opening in the very near future. I don't have any specifics at the moment but it will most likely be a 'hybrid' position - some tech support, some marketing, and some data entry. We are currently trying to determine our exact needs and working out the details. However, I thought I'd send you an email, in advance, to see if you are still interested and available? Hope to hear from you soon.
I am pleased to offer you the position of Technical Help Advisor. As discussed, this position will involve data entry, database management, and some project work with the sales and marketing departments, in addition to the technical support duties. You will be reporting to the Technical Support Manager (me) in the Walnut Creek office. Your hours will be initially from 8:00 AM to 4:30 PM, Monday to Friday, with a half-hour for lunch. Please report to work at 8 AM on Monday August 9, 2004.
Welcome to the team.